SOmetimes it does feel pathetic, even to myself... hell, I'm the writer and I get disgusted at my own work. Despite the fact that I am not a perfectionist, i still find that dissatisfaction and dissapoitment is prevalent when i review some of the things I have done. Just human, I guess. But then again, these thoughts are there for a reason... they represent the way i feel about my life, and the world in general.... okay, maybe not so general. :)

Currently, the biggest dillemma i am facing is decididng what to do next, as in further education. Some people think I'm smart and all that... I'm smart enough not to believe them. hahaha. No, this is not low self-esteem. I work with both my heart and mind, which isn't the requirement for a smart, successful, modern 'individual', at least not the way others see it. The term would be romantic idealist... i never was a fan of categorizing. I have to much baggage to be a quality achiever in this world of cunning, backstabbing opportunists. Understandable, to a certain point.