So often I feel like I'm trapped in a place I don't belong. I keep getting the feeling that I am just too different to be part of my family. I don't know how I got this way...just that I did. I no longer share the same values and ideals that my parents have... which leads to a lot of complications in my life.

Its hard for me to give priority to my future success and all that, because i am simply not that type of person. I don't know for sure... but my heart tells me that there is much more to life than just striving to earn and be successful. My parents don't care about all that...in fact they are afraid of it. They fear that I'm corrupt and in the wrong path for thinking that money and success does not matter.... they fear that I will dissappoint them.

Somehow, they can't understand that it is important for me to continue doing what I love to do...even if it means i have to struggle a little. I might not become rich and famous, but I'll be happy as long as I continue doing that which makes me happy, and I'm with the ones I care for most of all.

How does one think about self-progress when there is so much pain and suffering in this world? There is so much of wrongs that are being done...and there is nothing to stop it. I feel burdened somewhat and can never be satisfied until at least I've given my best shot.

2004-01-07 - 10:46 p.m.

NO ONE HAS A MONOPOLY ON THE TRUTH WHEN IT COMES TO SPIRITUALITY


THE ONLY THING THAT IS OBSCENE IS THIS WORLD ARE PEOPLE WHO TELL US WHAT IS OBSCENE


FIGHTING FOR PEACE IS LIKE FUCKING FOR VIRGINITY


FUCK ALL YOU RELIGIOUS PREACHERS!!!!!!