Every day my thoughts are clouded. I know that there is an uncertainty lingering over me which i cannot shake. I don't know why I am this way... why i can never be at peace. truly. I onlu know that I am troubled and insecure. I am making mistakes too often and my judgement is not what it should be.
I want to pull through all of the things I am going through, and more than anything I desire the strength and guidance to help me along the way. Only one can ever be my source of hope and light, and she is the one my heart and soul long for every passing moment.
I feel alone when i know well enough that those whom I love and who love me are always around me, and it frightens me. It makes me yearn for Allry all the more desperately. I think of how our lives might be, of all the joys we might share together, as simple as they might be, just by being together. This glimpse of our future fills me with hope and gets me through my days, even though i feel so weary. I love my Allry. SHE is my everything.