I am starting to feel rather stronger these days...thanks in large part to the two week break i was on. I managed to take the opportunity to rebuild my self and now I feel like i am better prepared to face the world again. I am more confident that my self-doubt has lessened considerably and I am firmer now. Mostly this is due to me spending so much time with Allry and relaxing my mind. I realised that I was guilty of too much self-doubt. That is a bane upon my soul, something i can really do without. I know it now, and I know my self a little better now.
I haven't found the happiness and the completion i'm looking for, but I am ack on the right road again, thanks to my dearest friends, the ones I love.