I am starting to feel rather stronger these days...thanks in large part to the two week break i was on. I managed to take the opportunity to rebuild my self and now I feel like i am better prepared to face the world again. I am more confident that my self-doubt has lessened considerably and I am firmer now. Mostly this is due to me spending so much time with Allry and relaxing my mind. I realised that I was guilty of too much self-doubt. That is a bane upon my soul, something i can really do without. I know it now, and I know my self a little better now.
I haven't found the happiness and the completion i'm looking for, but I am ack on the right road again, thanks to my dearest friends, the ones I love.

i'm looking frizzled 

Had a really good day today with one of my best friends, Derrik... we came up with four spanking new tracks for our band, each one of them showing signs of maturity and growing ability. I am very proud of these new songs as they represent a milestone in whatever is in store for us in the near future.
Hopefully this is a sign of things to come and the catalyst of this band's evolution.

Me on a normal day 

Things have been on a serious upswing this past few days, even though i inititially had a bad feeling about it. I kinda feel i deserved a bit of good in my life after the stuff i had been recently going through. I've been having a good time since saturday, going out with friends, watching movies, generally having fun, doing stuff i want to do. Now, when was the last time i said that? hahaha....
Oh, I got my hands on Avril Lavigne's new cd. The thing about Avril is that i've always known she had a talent, good talent but her first album fell short, seriously short, and it gave the media the wrong impression about her. People got the wrong impression about her. I guess she was a bit immature, still young and all.
Well, she has grown up...a lot. That should be enough to tell the current story about Avril Lavigne. Maturity. Finding oneself. That's what we're all trying to do, right? Growing up. Learning through every thing we go through, all the shit we put up with, the mistakes we make, the success, and whatever. They don't really matter, its just the things we take from them..the lessons and satisfaction.