Do you recall the times you used to look at me and say.
whether either of us will ever see the light of day,
and i keep telling that no matter what others do or say,
they will never be able to take our dreams away.

Despite all the times we have felt like giving in,
to all the pressures and obstacles that wear us thin,
they only succeed in making us closer than we've ever been,
giving us the ability to find the hope within.

Everyone use to say that for us hope was forsaken,
but we never gave in and fell under the weight of this burden,
no matter how many things from us they have taken,
we still have our love it'll always be our salvation.

And now after all this time has passed into memory,
and all that trouble was merely temporary,
we are both left to ourselves in this serenity,
where we can live our lives free from agony.

Love's Promise.

I'll follow beside you,
Even if we're all alone,
Know that I'll always love you,
And I'll never leave you alone.

Whenever you are scared,
I'll fight off your fears,
I will chase away anything bad,
And then wipe away your tears.

I'm neither mighty nor invincible,
but you may always lean on me,
I'll always do what I'm able,
All i ask is for you to love me.

Let me be your man,
who holds you tight at night,
Let me be your friend,
who will always hold you tight.

There is no way for me to tell you,
How much I truly love you,
I hope you see that its true,
That I've become a part of you.

We all seem to lose ourselves so easily, to simply surrender and fall into the crowd. We give up the fight even before we start. Why doesn't anyone stop and think, about what they are doing and what everyone else is doing? Why don't they just sit back for a while and consider their lives? Shouldn't they be able to consider their current lifestyle and determine whether it is what they truly want and need, if their way of life is giving them the satisfaction and contentment that we all crave in truth?
I think that most of us refuse to give a moment to think about our lives because we are afraid. Afraid to see things for what they really are. We are hanging on to some distorted logic that ignorance is bliss and that by continually moving and working, these questions and doubts won't arise. We are trying to delay what will eventually come anyway. We give ourselves completely to the search for materialistc riches, ambition, greed and success, just so we won't have to bother ourselves with the deeper part of our lives. Not many have the courage and strength to walk through the fire of doubt and emotions, where the only things that truly matter are faith and love. To some, allowing these doubts about our way of life to surface is wrong, but they can never find any form of justification and thus it is nothing more than a natural human fear of the unknown. We fear aliens, we fear God and in the very same way, we fear ourselves. We fear who we are inside, our feelings and our desires.
Why is it wrong to ask our own hearts what it really seeks? In my own heart, i believe that the only true happiness in this world belongs to those who take these steps of self-discovery and then go on to seek out their destinies and dreams. More often than not, these aren't people who want money, property or physical wealth, but to be as close as they can to their emotional homes...their families and friends. They seek not to be successful or rich, but to share what they are able with the world and give back to this beautiful Earth what they can. It is love they seek, a pure love, where one can give themselves completely into caring for another person. Faith is the other arm, the guiding light of life, and it is not grounded in prejudice like race, nor fanaticism like religion. Instead, it is grounded in simplicity, powerful yet gentle.
If I could do something for this world, this would be it. I would try to make more people stop for a moment and relax. To think long and hard and listen to their hearts instead of their minds. I would want people to gain a deeper understanding of themselves as individuals and their true needs and desires. Most importantly, I would want people to not give up their search for true happiness, no matter how hard that road may seem.
For now, most of us are barely drifting, allowing our fears to dictate our lives.

As much as I want to punch out at someone sometimes, I never ever get to it. Why? I think I'm a nice guy. Yeah,. right. And Pigs just started to sprout wings in Romania. Point is, I'm an artist, and idealist, a romanticist, call it whatever you want, i believe in certain things and i stay true to them. One of those include being kind and fair to others as best as I can...i f some people consider that a weakness, then it's their own problem.
I may not have the freedom to change others, or the ability to right wrongs, but I definitely have the right to decide the way i am, my presentation, my personality and what-not.
So, shove it

It's almost like a bullet train heading towards hell. A rocket doomed to crash despite its advanced technology. It does feel like there is a black cloud hanging around my brain everytime i try to think of my future.
I've decided I need to secure myself more firmly. This is embarassing, but I have decided that i need to find a job, something to earn a little extra. All i can say is...this Sucks!