I'm Haunted.

Conversations that keep playing,

over and over again,

words upon words that i just keep hearin,

they drive me insane

Nothing i do seems to be helping,

i can't drive these voices away,

sometimes, I just feel like running,

I just want to run away,

Just leave me alone,

I don't wanna know,

Don't tell me where to go,

Just leave me alone.

How long will it keep coming,

to kill me inside,

I'm so tired of trying,

to hold it all inside

The Road To Nowhere

On the road again,

I'm trying to escape from everything.

From a world of pain,

And I'm not sure where it is I'm going,

In my car again,

I see your face everywhere I go,

I close my eyes,

your face permeates everything i know..

I'm on my own,

But I'm not alright,

I hate being alone,

Hate it when you're right...

I'm alone again,

so alone in my car and no destination,

so tired of this pain,

i lie alone in sorrow seeking resolution...

The Missing

He's giving himself in,

sold his soul for a penny,

the devil's calling him,

from where he's sitting.

They're like dead men walking,

can't come back to the living,

They search but it's missing,

Death that's so close it's almost touching

Coz We are the missing...

Souls that keep bleeding...

we're all missing...

She cries for the thing's she ain't got,

she bows down to the false god,

no one thinks on their own no more,

no one's satisfied with what they have...

Take a touch, a taste of something much bigger than ourselves... and the feeling that comes is unexpected. Fragility accompanied by gratefulness... appreciation for how precious we all are, and how tiny.

another guitarist pose 

This Is A Brilliant Work Of Art....Not by Me, though 

Yo, the Uber-guitaris 

I know I have been a rather big slob lately, with about as punctual as a sloth...its just that I just can't get my ass to type something in here. Anyways, a lot has happened since I last posted an entry. Perhaps I should start with the Intercampus debates in my college and all the baggage that came with it. My modem is being a real asshole by the way...doesn't want to stay connected.
Anyway, the debates..... basically the one thing that has kept me in college these past year... my love for the debating club of my college. It's not just that I love debating, but also the quality companionship that i discovered among my fellow debaters and debater wannabes... they are all such wonderful people. The kind of people you would never expect to find in the dump of a college that I go to. Special, unique individuals who are great to have as friends...I'm really going to miss them once I leave at the end of the year.
Anyway, I've really been giving a lot to debating... been working my ass off to improve myself, and I really feel like I have come a long way, from the days of a fierce, flustered speaker with no self-restrain, i have learned how to time myself, organize my speeches, and have a better grasp of the various concepts of debating. That's what you get from debating for hours everyday. But mostly it's the company. The wonderful, wonderful company... of course, it helps that a number of them are females...but very, VERY interesting young women, I have to say... like I said earlier, they are all special.
I'm not paying RM90 each month for an unreliable connection!!!
One of them is a young woman from accounting... I won't tell any names, but I think I might be more than a little attracted to her. First of all, I find her unusual in many ways. She is very interesting, with many many quirks, but one thing that really hook me was her courage. I think she is very brave, braver than most people I know. WHy? I won't say why here...too risky. She also happens to be one of the sweetest and nicest people I have met, but then again, that applies to all of them.
Back to the actual debating...I managed to make it to the final of the intercampus, just liek last year...except that I had a much stronger team and this time I was at the forefront as team leader, a truly wonderful experience, even though we lost at the final.
I have to say that the debates was by far the most fulfilling and enlightening time I have had in my life, besides being with my beloved.
Oh, by the way, a small little thingy...i'm curently taking my finals.
Back to the important stuff.... my music ventures...
Well, basically, i haven't been practicing that much...nowhere near as much as I would like to...but I just haven't got the time to do it yet...I should, though, once my finals are over.
I can't take any more of this fucking connection!!! It's driving me nuts!!
Ah..well..i guess this is it for now...i'll try to be back soon....